Life!!!! What is it all about? hmm..

This morning, korean lecturer has shared his thoughts again about life. His question was "Why do you live your life for? What is the reason you fight for it?" His one question really gave me alot of thinking process. After class, I has the urge to sms dad and ask him.

His reply was "Tough ones. No one has ever ask me this until now. Will let you know when pa finds the answer to your question." I think Dad is squeezing his brain to think the most suitable answer to satisfy my question.

I don't really understand or can say that I can't even understand it. I couldn't answer this question. My mind is totally blank for this. Since I was a teenage, I thought life is just a simplest thing to understand. I really thought life is just about become a student, a wife, a mom, a grandma and lastly, leaving this world. That's it. BUT IT TOTALLY NOT THE ONE I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THESE WHILE. This kind of question is just too deep to be understand not until u have reach that stage, you couldn't understand it. Yea, of course, a few questions popped out from my mind that I do really wanted to ask my dad and mom for answers.

Daddy, Mummy....

1. What do you actually want to achieve in ur life? Have you achieve it till now at this stage of yours?
2. What is the most important things in your life at this stage?
3. What is your dream when you're young? Have your dream come true?
   
4. Is this the life you want? Is this your dream life?
5. What is the meaning of life to you?
6. How do you live your life?
   

There's too many of questions in my head that couldn't have excellent answers for them until I experience it myself. Well, yeah~ I'm too young to know all these stuffs. But I have to prepare to face it as I felt that time passed real fast recently. When you wake up early in the morning, once you blink your eye, the sky is getting dark and that's it, NIGHT TIME again and vice versa. I was wondering how's my life could be in the future? Does it good or worst? I started to worry all things around me. What am I going to do after graduate? Where am I going to be after that? Will I be success? Will I marry to a guy which I dream about all these while? Too much of uncertainty.

I know, if God let you know His plan, this wouldn't a life for you. God wants you to discover ur life. How adventurous it is!!!!

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At this young stage of mine, I just realized that I took money matter as the most important things for me. Everytime I raised up money issue to my parents, me and mom will turned up quarrelling. Yea, it's happens most of the time during last Raya holidays. Now, I realize, I understand that money will cause a lot of unhappy issue. That's what I don't really like about. As what I've see, heard about all those unhappy issues that happens around me all the time, I realize that I don't really appreciating the things I have in my own pair of hand all these while. I took everything for granted. My family, especially!

Dad and mom works so hard and try their very best to provide me everything that I want. Foods, shelter, clothes and everything. All these are branded some more. Besides, sisters, girlie and ah na, tries their best to fulfill what I want too.

1. I want a shoes, they bring me to Hush Puppies and pick on my favourite shoes.
   
2. I want a phone, they bought it and surprise me without my attention.
   
3. I want to eat cakes, my sis bought a whole cheesecake from Secret Recipe.
   
4. I want to watch movie, sisters just let me use her membership card to purchase the ticket without asking me to pay for it.
5. I want to go wherever I want. Mom lend me her car to drive around.
6. I knocked my dad's car accidentally, my dad never scold me. *just show his black face only* :P
7. I owe mom's money, my mom never ask to pay back even a single cent, but in return, she provides me pocket money every month.
   

What I need, they do really fulfill it without letting me down. What's more I want from them? Are those not enough for me? Can I stop all these? I should be thankful! I should appretiate it! I should CHANGE this kind of bad behavior!

Do I really be able to pay them back for all these in future time? Am I able to? I was wondering...Or I just rely on them again and again in future and become OKU only..I just so scare what am I to be in the next few years.

I should stop here now~
Spent lots of time to think what to write in this post..
Time just passed by like that~
Sometimes it just so meaningless to me!