My Heart's Desire = The inner me

Yvonne, you want to be of service to the world. Your deepest satisfaction comes from knowing that you have advanced the cause of humanity.

Your ideals are of the highest order. You are a perfectionist. You strive to make the world a utopia; to make each person's lot in life better; to become perfect yourself. One of your challenges in life is to strive toward your lofty goals and at the same time recognize the good you are doing.

You like and are fascinated by people from all walks of life. Human nature is a lifelong study for you. You are highly intuitive, but not an especially good judge of character. You are a bit naive, as well, thinking perhaps that all people have the same values as you.

You dream of having the resources to immediately relieve the suffering of others, whether it is economic, physical, or psychological.

You are gifted with a good mind and a great deal of wisdom, which makes you a natural teacher, counselor, or healer.

As much as you desire to be of service to others, you also crave fame and the approval of the masses. Much of the energy you expend in life is directed toward putting yourself before an audience, most often as a salesperson whose product provides some social good; as a philanthropist; or an artist.

Yvonne, you are attracted to the arts as a vocation, especially as an actor, photographer, or writer. But whatever your profession, any involvement in the arts, even as a hobby, will provide you with a deep and lasting satisfaction.

Secretly, you dream of having a big impact on the world. Others may see this as egotism, especially when you are still young. But your concern for others is genuine. You must apply yourself in this direction in order to become psychologically whole and personally satisfied.

Your vision is on the crowds of people, which can cause you to overlook the needs of those closest to you. You need personal love as well, but have a tendency to put your needs in the background. Still, you are a loving person, and only need to be reminded to direct and demonstrate that love to those nearby. If, however, you are focused exclusively on the masses, people will perceive you as distant and a bit aloof.

You are emotional, and sensitive. You can also be moody and critical. You have high expectations for yourself and others. This can cause you much anger when your expectations are unfulfilled. One of your most important life lessons is to forgive.

Because you are striving hard to attain high ideals, you may think of yourself as superior to others. Arrogance is a trap many 9s fall into. The danger is that arrogance cuts you off from the thing you love the most: people.

Yvonne, your happiness and contentment are therefore highly dependent on the ease with which you are able to serve and influence mankind.

It is the paradox of your Heart's Desire that you receive by giving. Both your material success and spiritual satisfaction are made possible through service and sacrifice to others.

My Expression

Yvonne, you are optimistic, inspiring, outgoing, and expressive. People see you as cheerful, positive and charming; your personality has a certain bounce and verve that so powerfully affects others that you can inspire people without effort.

All of this upward energy is a symptom of your tremendous creativity. Your verbal skills may well lead you into the fields of writing, comedy, theater, and music.

Yours is the number of self-expression -- rich in imagination and spirit. But you have to be careful not to scatter your talents. Your bane is that you often lack discipline and order in your life. Avoid becoming a "happy- go-lucky" spendthrift, escaping responsibility and commitment. You must learn to concentrate and focus.

These are the keys to your success. You have great potential in the arts and areas that requires creative solutions to problems. You are able to perform leaps of imagination, providing unconventional ideas as if they suddenly descended from above. Hard work and focus, however, are the foundation for a successful future.

Though you possess great verbal skills, your mind tends to see life as pictures rather than in words. Yet, you have the ability to think abstractly.

Creativity is a sensitive faculty that is often suppressed in childhood. If you lack the confidence to pursue your ideas, you may divert your abilities into a scattering of trivial pursuits.

To overcome this problem, you must make a choice. Yvonne, you have to limit your field of vision and the number of activities you engage in, and bundle your energies into a single thrust. Focus your life; choose the area that you love the most, and commit. There, you will find success. And a great deal of happiness.

Love, romance, and money are within your reach. You are aided by your friends and admirers. Often people appear out of nowhere to help you in key situations. Yvonne, you have to learn to accept the involvement of others in your life. You are not a loner, nor are you particularly independent. You are social -- you need an audience and the support of others to fully realize your abilities.

On the down-side, you can be superficial, moody, and intolerant. You are emotional and sensitive, sometimes presuming criticism where none was intended. You can also be jealous and gossipy. Beware of becoming cynical and sarcastic. These traits can suppress your natural creativity.

Be goal-oriented. This is a practical, step-by-step approach to your larger ambitions. You possess the natural abilities to attain a high degree of excellence.

My Life Path

Yvonne, you are the philanthropist, humanitarian, socially conscious, and are deeply concerned about the state of the world. You have great compassion and idealism. You are a utopian, and will spend your life trying to realize some aspect of your utopian dream, sacrificing money, time, and energy for a better world. It is in giving that you will find much satisfaction.

You have a broad outlook on life. You tend to see the big picture, rather than the minute details. You naturally attract people from all walks of life who can fit into your larger plans and take over the areas you find uninteresting. The person with a 9 Life Path is rarely prejudiced or accepts social biases of people. Instead, they valuate people on the basis of what they can do for the larger cause. They are the true egalitarian.

Yvonne, you are imaginative and creative, especially at harmoniously arranging the beauty already potential in the environment. These abilities can lead you into such fields as interior decorating, landscape art, and photography. But because of your strong social consciousness, you can be an effective politician, lawyer, judge, minister, teacher, healer, and environmentalist. Vocations that require self- sacrifice and have a clear social impact are common among 9s.

You are often disappointed by the realities of life: the shortcomings of others, or of yourself. Somehow, you don't want to accept the imperfections of the world, a feeling that drives you constantly to try to improve upon it. But rather than be satisfied with your efforts, and those of others, you relentlessly push on, striving for greater accomplishments. You are often unsatisfied with the results. In short, you lack the perspective that would otherwise make it possible for you to enjoy life more fully, and accept its natural limitations.

You have a controlled enthusiasm and the ability to finish what you start.

A key to your personality is the necessity of sacrifice. You have to learn to let go of material possessions and relationships, the inherent lesson being that holding on too tightly to anything causes pain.

Money comes to you through mysterious or unexpected ways: inheritance; the benevolence of someone who was inspired by your work; or a lucky investment.

Conversely, if you pursue money for its own sake, after giving up on your larger dreams, you're likely to find yourself empty handed.

The most successful and satisfying road for a nine is giving; sharing and sacrificing for a larger goal, without expecting anything in return. Yvonne, your greatest chance at success is to tie your personal fortunes to an endeavor that makes the world a better place for others. Very often, this turns into a highly successful and lucrative enterprise, providing amply for you and your family. Your life rests on the axiom that the more you give, the bigger your reward.

You are romantic, but your love is more impersonal. You tend to be focused on your dreams.

When you are not in harmony with your true nature, you can fall to moodiness, or become aloof, and withdrawn. You can become timid, uncertain, and ungrateful, putting the blame for your troubles on others or the world. You have a gift for examining your life objectively, and at some distance. Be honest with yourself. By openly facing your shortcomings, as well as your strengths, you develop equilibrium. You are thus able to love and better understand yourself and all of life.

Exam again...SIghz~!!

This morning, im freezing like hell in class. Today is replacement class. Sighs~! Replace so many times..Know what, this is all because of some stupid parents complaining "y there's no enough replacement classes?" Adui..they so like to sent their children to sch meh? Parents ar parents, car petrol nowadays so many expensive leh..why have to sent ur son or daughter to sch on saturday? the education department help u to save money and yet u all go and complain there's no enough replacement class again..adui~~ *grRr* Today's classes damn so boring eh..teachers didnt teach at all. But we had fun for this morning..Know what we do for the whole morning? we gamble..haha~ but i lose ler..*sniff* *sniff* I'm not satisfied with it~~ I wanna win back my money =( haha~ nvm la..got lose got win ma..if no lose, where got win leh..hehe~ After class, we've got Geography Club Meeting..Actually teacher is the one who conduct this meeting, but in the end, she ask us to conduct because she lazy to climb up the staircase until 2nd floor =.=" Then we have to conduct for the whole session of the meeting lo~~ adui~~ We also dunno what to do at first, but in the end, Connie, the president of the club start it. In this meeting, we choose new AJK for 2007/08 to take over our job..So, after this meeting, we wont attend any meeting again because we have to concentrate on our studies liao..This club organized a trip to Camp Permai, Santubong on the 4th August that is next week. Just a day trip actually and we have to went down town at 2pm. I don't think it enjoyable because we just have a short time for us to have picnic and having some activities there..So, in this picnic, i manage to bake a chocolate cake and bring it for this trip because i have no idea what food i wanna bring since my friends bought the snacks oledi..So i manage to bake a cake lor..hehe~

After went home and have lunch and took my shower, i drove my sis to PBK and went to DIY to bought the ingredient of the chocolate cake. I spend less than rm10 on the ingredients because i no need to buy some of the ingredients because i have it at home d..After that, i went to Sweet Memory [stationary shop at Tabuan]. I cant find any parking that time until i drove few round at that area den finally, there's a parking lot. Sienz! Waste my car petrol nia.. I went there to get my photo stated stuffs. The owner of the shop only less me abit nia..Lokek nyer~! Since i have photostate so many, shud give me more discount ma..adui~~ Then, i went back home, doing my homeworks. After doing, i've got abit headache, maybe because of not enough sleep kua..hehe~ That time oledi 4+, so i manage not to sleep because i'll going to church at 6pm. Before that, mom ask me to pick up my sis at PBK at 5pm. I thought my parents will go and pick them, who knows, ask me pulak..Usually, is my parents pick them up one..but just now my parents was busying washing the car, so she ask me to pick them lo..I drove quite fast because rushing home to take my shower and ready to go to church. Around 6+, the weather is quite gloomy and it might be rain so heavily..Den i keep on asking help from God so that it wont rain b4 the mass is ended. God has answering my prayer because after the mass ended awhile, den baru start raining..hehe~ God is so powerful, right? We must believe in God in whatever we do or wherever we are..Please think of God and ask help from Him b4 u wanna start to do anything..When we drove until SMK Padungan, it start raining..

Food Fair Festival started tonight and yet its raining. Can you guys imagine that while ppl enjoying their dinner at there and suddenly rain so heavily? Where they gonna hide themselves and the foods as well? This afternoon, im pretty sure that it will be raining tonight because the afternoon weather is damn HOT~ Yet, this morning, my friend say better rain tonite ar...so bad~ She cannot go is her prob ma, why wanna say better rain leh? haha...We every time is like that one ler..when we cant go to some places, we sure will start cursing liao..For ex : Better rain heavily ar..Lol..We plan to go there on the second week because our pocket quite dry oledi...So have to wait for the second week lo..This is one of the disadvantage of being a student without working. We cant get money from parents quite often because we might been scolded in the end..So, have to save money for some purposes lo..

Our monthly exam is starting on the 7th August, yet, i haven start doing revision. Last minute freak again. I ever confess that i will never ever do last minute revision leh..See, in the end, im still become a last minute freak again..what a failure!!! Anyways, at least i did some revision rather than didnt do anything, right? although i might be fail in the exam, im satisfied with it because i tried my best oledi =) I'm easily satisfied on what im doing although it doesnt pay me off..I might disappointed with it but im still satisfied =) Well, for my STPM examination, i didnt put so much hope in it because the more hope, the more disappointed, right? At first, i manage to go into Uni, but now, i've changed my mind oledi. I might be futhering my studies in Hospitality & Tourism or Nursing Course. But i still depends on my result first. If good, den i try to apply it. If not successfully go into Uni, den i just go for my new plan lor..hehe~

Ok la..Update till here only..hehe~ I'll update about my personality on the next blog then.. =)

Forgive & Forget

I didnt blog for quite ago ya due to my laziness to blog..haha~! Actually, not im lazy la..just the time not allow me to do..a fren asking me "why so long dun have new updates from you?[altho different sentence yet same meaning =D]" Sorry Phoebe coz caused u waiting for my new updates. Hehe~

Recently, i stay back at sch for doing my revision because i dowan to do my revision at home. This is because there's so many things that attract me not to study [computer, tv, my bed & etc]. Well, hope the time i've sacrificed will turn into what i want in return. STPM coming soon. Yet, there's alot of things to revise again. 6 thick books only for 2 subjects [history & geo] for me to revise..do u guys think i can finish up all those books? cannot rite? haha~ Yet, i still have to re-sit my MUET in the yr end again..sighz~! Form 6 life quite stress rite? i know, Uni or college life even more stress. Life is like that one lar..I understand one..lolx~!

I had a friendship problem again..Dunno y this kind of problem keep on coming towards me? =( Well, i hope i can overcome this problem..I try my very best to settle it down by monday onwards..all the best for me *winks*

Anyways, my update until here only..
[p/s : Phoebe, happy reading ya although it quite short la..haha]