:( :(

I wish there could be someone call or sms me right at this very moment~
I wish there could be someone talk to me at this very moment~
I wish there could be someone to laugh with me at this very moment~
I wish there could be someone to chat with me at this very moment~
I wish and I wish and I wish...
Because I'm feel very lonely right at this moment!!!!
It's not because of roommate went back to hometown..
Is because I just not used to stay alone in this room..
All these while, since Year 1, there are people around me.. No matter during mid term holiday or study week, there surely be someone accompany me..But now~ NONE!!!!
Why? Where are they?
I feel that my friend circle is getting smaller and smaller..I wonder why?
I hardly find friends that really compatible with me..It hard, real hard!!!
Why is it so??

A post to fill up my loneliness :(

Outing with beloved friends

Yesterday was my first outing to Alor Setar with my baby and 亲爱的 in this semester. We went to the Regency Hotel for buffet lunch which cost us RM25++ per person. It's not up to our expectation as the foods was not tempting enough if compared to last time Hospitality Grand Dinner Buffet dinner. Totally down-graded =.=" In this eating session, we took lotsa pictures together but not the foods..hehe~ We ate alot especially Ping Ping as she cant stop on munching the foods while me and Yun See already stopped..We felt so bloated and feeling uncomfortable..Ahh!

After lunch, we took a few more pictures at the lobby before leaving the hotel. When we wanted to leave the place, DANG!!! This is what we saw. The left front tyre has punctured. We didnt notice it before we went to lunch. Damn! We don't even know how to change the tyre and nobody is around the parking area. Sigh~ We have no choice but to approach the hotel front desk for help..Lucky us! They ask the maintenance department to help us change. Ahh! Our time wasted because of this..

Then, went to Petronas to pump some gas to the tyre..After that, straight to Shahab Perdana as Ping Ping and Yun See wanted to buy ticket back to hometown. While we walk in to the ticketing stall, there is a car with 4 or 5 guys keep on looking at us. Just like never see pretty girls before meh?? wakaka :D

We went to Alor Star Mall after they bought their ticket. And yes, we went for a movie, not sing K as we planned before. We watched Sammy's Adventures: the secret passage. It's a animation cartoon. A nice one to watch and it worth any single cent you have paid...

nice cartoon^^ if watched with 3D effect even more nice :P

The showtime is 5.15pm, so we went for dessert and a walk in Pacific Store..After a movie, we went to our car..Guess what we saw again? Tyre punctured again..DANG!!! We drove out from the mall and the luck is on us..We saw a tyre shop outside the mall.. Thank God! Luckily the shop haven close yet ^^ The worker was friendly enough to help us to check the tyre. hehe! Then, we off to Tesco for groceries shopping ^^

What a troublesome car..Gave us lots of trouble during our trip. Ish! I wonder, as if the luck was not on us, what going to happen on us? Left the car in Alor Setar and back to UUM by bus? That's end of our trip..but we didnt had dinner after the buffet lunch as we still felt bloated..So, no Kampung Siam ~.~

*End*

empty PROMISES

Empty PROMISES..
What does it mean to you?
For me, it is a promise that have been comes out from your own mouth but never fulfill it at all. What a promise never a promise to you..
How do you feel if you received this kind of promises?
Sad, disappointed, angry, frustrated or you might be happy of it??
Sometimes, people tend to make a lots of promises easily in everything.
Love, friendship, their life, and so on...
But, have you ever think of the person who heard your promises and stick it into their heart? How do they feel?
It's hurt a lot..damn A LOT!!! Even though the person tend to accept it and telling you "that's alright!", "Nevermind!" or "Just go on with it!", but deep inside their heart, it full of pains and disappointments.

When you accept ONE PROMISE at least, you will automatically plan something on your head, isn't it? When you almost implement your so-called "PLAN", all of a sudden, you found out that the promise is empty all the time. The plan turned out to be SO MEANINGLESS and you will be speechless about it. People hates this a lots includes me...

Yup, I listen and accept a whole lots of promises but most of them are turned out to be emptied. So, most of the time, it frustrates me deeply.
I know, if you make a lots of empty promises, people will not fully trust by your words anymore. They just took your words for GRANTED..Do you want that to be happens on you? The answer would be NO, right?

Well, of course, I do makes empty promises too..Those who listen to my empty promises would feel the same as I do as if there is someone who make one to me as well.
I'm telling myself not to always make promises that I can't even fulfill. But sometimes, I just tend to do it.
So I tells myself "IF YOU WANT TO MAKE PROMISES, PLEASE MAKE IT DEEP INSIDE YOUR HEART FIRST UNTIL YOU HAVE FULFILL IT, THEN JUST TELL IT OUT TO EVERYONE." Therefore, people will never know what's ur promises are OR they don't even know whether you did make promises or not..

That's all!!!
*END*

Life!!!! What is it all about? hmm..

This morning, korean lecturer has shared his thoughts again about life. His question was "Why do you live your life for? What is the reason you fight for it?" His one question really gave me alot of thinking process. After class, I has the urge to sms dad and ask him.

His reply was "Tough ones. No one has ever ask me this until now. Will let you know when pa finds the answer to your question." I think Dad is squeezing his brain to think the most suitable answer to satisfy my question.

I don't really understand or can say that I can't even understand it. I couldn't answer this question. My mind is totally blank for this. Since I was a teenage, I thought life is just a simplest thing to understand. I really thought life is just about become a student, a wife, a mom, a grandma and lastly, leaving this world. That's it. BUT IT TOTALLY NOT THE ONE I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THESE WHILE. This kind of question is just too deep to be understand not until u have reach that stage, you couldn't understand it. Yea, of course, a few questions popped out from my mind that I do really wanted to ask my dad and mom for answers.

Daddy, Mummy....

1. What do you actually want to achieve in ur life? Have you achieve it till now at this stage of yours?
2. What is the most important things in your life at this stage?
3. What is your dream when you're young? Have your dream come true?
   
4. Is this the life you want? Is this your dream life?
5. What is the meaning of life to you?
6. How do you live your life?
   

There's too many of questions in my head that couldn't have excellent answers for them until I experience it myself. Well, yeah~ I'm too young to know all these stuffs. But I have to prepare to face it as I felt that time passed real fast recently. When you wake up early in the morning, once you blink your eye, the sky is getting dark and that's it, NIGHT TIME again and vice versa. I was wondering how's my life could be in the future? Does it good or worst? I started to worry all things around me. What am I going to do after graduate? Where am I going to be after that? Will I be success? Will I marry to a guy which I dream about all these while? Too much of uncertainty.

I know, if God let you know His plan, this wouldn't a life for you. God wants you to discover ur life. How adventurous it is!!!!

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At this young stage of mine, I just realized that I took money matter as the most important things for me. Everytime I raised up money issue to my parents, me and mom will turned up quarrelling. Yea, it's happens most of the time during last Raya holidays. Now, I realize, I understand that money will cause a lot of unhappy issue. That's what I don't really like about. As what I've see, heard about all those unhappy issues that happens around me all the time, I realize that I don't really appreciating the things I have in my own pair of hand all these while. I took everything for granted. My family, especially!

Dad and mom works so hard and try their very best to provide me everything that I want. Foods, shelter, clothes and everything. All these are branded some more. Besides, sisters, girlie and ah na, tries their best to fulfill what I want too.

1. I want a shoes, they bring me to Hush Puppies and pick on my favourite shoes.
   
2. I want a phone, they bought it and surprise me without my attention.
   
3. I want to eat cakes, my sis bought a whole cheesecake from Secret Recipe.
   
4. I want to watch movie, sisters just let me use her membership card to purchase the ticket without asking me to pay for it.
5. I want to go wherever I want. Mom lend me her car to drive around.
6. I knocked my dad's car accidentally, my dad never scold me. *just show his black face only* :P
7. I owe mom's money, my mom never ask to pay back even a single cent, but in return, she provides me pocket money every month.
   

What I need, they do really fulfill it without letting me down. What's more I want from them? Are those not enough for me? Can I stop all these? I should be thankful! I should appretiate it! I should CHANGE this kind of bad behavior!

Do I really be able to pay them back for all these in future time? Am I able to? I was wondering...Or I just rely on them again and again in future and become OKU only..I just so scare what am I to be in the next few years.

I should stop here now~
Spent lots of time to think what to write in this post..
Time just passed by like that~
Sometimes it just so meaningless to me!

Happy monday ^^

Another update ^_^

I'm lack of sleep recently due to burning too much midnight oil on the report. I was thought that I can have a good rest last night. Who knows, a friend came to me for help regarding to the report. So, I have tried my very best to help him out. There's too many problems in his report. The questionnaire was totally wrong and the data collected hardly to be counted out. Therefore, I help him in constructing a new set of questionnaire again. Luckily I have an average to good english *proud* and he has lots of idea even though some of the them are totally OUT.

Yup, I have morning class at 8 today and my head and eyes felt extremely heavy. Anyways, I went to class with a blur face and a pair of puffy eyes T_T Oh ya, I nearly fell down when I climb up the staircase. Luckily I was holding my baby's right hand. The symptom of overly tiredness due to a lotssssssssssss of things to do in study life. Well, it's gonna come to an end of this semester and I'm waiting for my lovely december holiday to come ^^

These few days, I ateeee alotssssssss. My bodyshape has changed. I AM EXTREMELY SAD AND DISAPPOINTED LAA...
Why i can't be like a certain people who can eat alot, but their bodyshape just still nice? Ahh~ different people, different fate!!!
Last few nights before I slept, I was think of so many delicious foods that I want to make on this coming holidays.
~Pizza
~Sushi
~Banana cake
~Chicken pie
~Mushroom soup with garlic bread
~Butter cake
~Honey chicken wings
~lotss more.. :P

Also, I did a plan in my mind about foods that i wanna eat as well..hohoho~
~Jellyfish
~Ice kacang
~Belacan Beehoon
~Steamboat
~Korean foods
~Korean ice cream
~Kueh Chap
~Tomato Kueh Teow
~Sarawak laksa
~Rojak
~Ham bun
~Char Kueh
~Mee sua with wanton
~and lots lots more *drooling*

Be ready to face the FAT of all the foods and also, you all will see the different YVONNE in the coming semester..Hohoho~


*End*

one PRAISE is enough to make up my DAY

I always say I wanna start updating my blog but I NEVER DID~
SO, NOW I DID ^^
Today, both my baby and I feel very happy because we did very well in our presentation of the REPORT and our lecturer quite impressed with us and not to forget her praises for us..GOOD JOB, Babes <3
Well, her PRAISES brighten up our DAY..wooohooo~~
Our efforts always been paid off well whenever 3 of us works together and it's a last minute workout I say here..
We squeeze our brain to the maximum level to come out with a new set of questionnaire,
We think out ideas that never come out in the early days,
We think of some vocabulary and built them into sentences,
We correcting each other grammars,
These are all we did in few nights time, whereas other groups might done their assignment in the past one month.
Although there is ups and downs during the process, but we did manage it very well..I felt very lucky and glad to have friends like them. We accepts every mistakes, every comments, every harsh words that comes out from our mouth and everything with an open heart. I know 3 of us will surely feel very uneasy about it, but we manage to overcome this behavior peacefully *winks*

This is what we called true ASSIGNMENTS partners, work together till the end with a big SMILE ^^

*End of the post*
Stay tune for the next update ^^

back to study now....

I'm gonna start to make my blog alive soon..I will write a blog whenever i'm feeling lonely, desperate, sad, happy, and the list goes on..

Gonna have quiz and mid term very soon...so stressed up due to the environment im in now...sigh~~